Had a great chat with Kim today about a whole lot of stuff (as always). Can’t remember exactly what we talked about and am clear that it doesn’t really matter as these conversations have a way of seeping into my life in ways that would not be possible if I was actually trying to do something.
One statement though that came out of it was ‘the gentle revolution’ which grabbed me for a number of reasons. Firstly because my focus is on being gentle with myself and secondly because revolution means ‘a sudden, extreme, or complete change in the way people live, work, etc.'(some dictionary meaning that came up when I googled). And I am definitely up for a gentle but complete change in the way that I live my life.
The past 6 months has been crazy busy but the last month in particular has been pretty crappy. It began with a cold which led to shingles which led to another virus and an ear infection which was followed immediately by pneumonia (4 days in hospital and another 5 on the couch). I think the universe had been telling me to slow down for a while now but because I refused to listen, it threw pneumonia at me. A trip to emergency in an ambulance after fighting to be able to breathe – incredibly scary and painful. As an aside I hadn’t been in an ambulance before and have to say that the paramedics were incredible – they kept me calm and of course gave me plenty of drugs to help (no wonder I loved them).
Just to add to the chaos, my hospital stay was just after moving into our new house and hosting my daughter’s 18th birthday and 5 days prior to the launch of a new website that I had been working my butt off on for my client. So with move incomplete and a website not finished, I had to give up control and allow people to help me. I handed the website launch over to a colleague and allowed my family to fix the house. I sat in hospital and just allowed myself to be sick and to just rest. For those of you who know me well you will be chuckling to yourself or maybe even rolling on the floor laughing as I am NOT one to give up control very easily. But I am learning.
Being in hospital was actually wonderful as I was forced to stop. I truly relaxed (as much as one can when in pain) and allowed people to look after me. When I got home I had friends drop meals over and I didn’t move off the couch for several days. It was somewhat heavenly and have to say that I am missing it just a little. Might also have something to do with the stunning view from my sick bed (aka the couch) in my new house – (photo below)
So all of this has got me to today and the start of my gentle revolution. What that looks like is that for the next 12 months (maybe even 18) I am going to focus completely on my health. I am going to get myself well and fit and take the busy-ness out of my life. No new business ventures, no schemes, no taking on big projects. It’s going to be all about me. And the timing is perfect because at the end of this year my son is off to Europe on a working holiday for 6-12 months and my daughter will be heading off to uni in Feb so my mothering duties will change dramatically giving me that extra time to practice being gentle.
If you’d like to join me, I’d love the company. I think we could all do with a gentle revolution in our lives – don’t you agree.
Love Lee x