And it makes me really sad, or is it scared? Maybe both.
Actually if I am honest, it just makes me angry. I started to write this blog about who I have been in past and who I want to be in the future but deleted it. What I really want is to have a perfect life, perfect body, kick-ass business etc etc and I want it overnight. It’s not that I don’t want to work, it’s that I want the quick fix – for everything.
With my Fibro one of the best plans of attack to manage it is a gluten free, sugar free diet but do you think I do that. Nup – I continue to torture my body and put all of the things into it that aggravate it and cause more pain. These things also contribute to extra weight which puts more pressure on everything and makes it even harder for me to exercise.
But here’s the thing, it doesn’t work. I’d love to write a new plan right now but I am too scared to put it in writing as I don’t know myself as someone who can stick to things like that. I have to ponder some more…