Yes, this is it. My new mission. I am going to make teetotalling cool – well at least for myself.
I think that drinking (and I am referring to alcoholic beverages) for me is a habit and a way to get myself out of my head and to a place where I no longer think. For a brief period of time it is a place where I don’t worry about what other people think, I don’t analyse what I am doing, what I should be doing, why I am not doing it and whether or not I really ever wanted to do it in the first place. I am sure you can now see the attraction of this numbing substance.
I did give up drinking for about 3 years. Why you might ask – and believe me, many many many people did – most with looks of sheer horror – concerned about the mental health of someone who would choose to do something so utterly crazy. I gave up because I had been drinking too much (nearly every night for some time) and it was starting to have an impact on my life. But OMG were social situations tough. The feeling of being excluded, different, strange even. For someone who so desperately wants to belong, to feel included, part of the gang and the accepted, this was not an easy time. I found myself avoiding social situations as much as possible and when I did have to attend a function it was no fun at all.
The benefits of this 3 years however included a level of clarity that was amazing. I was totally present for a lot of the time. My body felt better, my skin was clearer and family life was good.
But over the past 12 months, a couple of champagnes to celebrate my 40th birthday led to – I’ll just have a few drinks at social events – led to – I will just drink on weekends (which of course starts on Friday night). The result – yes – I feel like I am part of the gang again but my body feels like it is falling apart, my head is fuzzy and my self esteem is low. And whats more, I am not really even enjoying the taste.
So after spending some time with my mate Google this morning, checking out who out there in the world is a proud teetotaller (ie famous people) and I was somewhat gobsmacked my the list. It included:
Russel Brand (really couldn’t believe this one)
Steve Jobs (Apple)
So bring on the non-alcoholic cocktails, the natural mineral water and a new phase of loving myself – inside and out!!